I have been watching bad TV for the last two hours, even though I have a VERY long list of “to do.” My accomplishments for the weekend are amazing and I am usually very self-critical. I am tired. I was just going to check my email and head off to bed, but then I saw a few postings that I couldn’t wait to read, and then, well I needed to wish you all Happy Easter!
I have noticed something crazy about myself. I don’t like to begin projects, or, uh, work. It always feels so overwhelming. My normal self dialogue: “Look! Look at that HUGE stack of papers I need to correct! Oh, and I know that TEST is in there, that is going to take me FOREVER! I am going to go eat some chocolate ice cream instead.” (This is the equivalent to plugging your ears and yelling “LALALALALA!”) I do this incessantly. However, once I start my work, it seems like I can’t stop. PLUS? I get irritated when I am interrupted. Grumpy too. And Crabby. You all know that I have three kids, a husband, and a little white yappy dog, right?
This weekend has been all about the starting: “Oh, my goodness. I REALLY don’t want to correct those tests. I have to make up a rubric to go with it! And! I have to actually DO THE TEST in order to correct it. It is going to take me FOREVER. I will never finish! (……….) FINE. I will DO THE DAMN TEST. Are you happy now??? Geez.”
And the stopping: “Mommy! We have to go to the store! YOU SAID you would buy us bagels for breakfast! We need eggs to color too!”
And the starting: Now, where was I?
And the stopping: “Hey woman! We need to go drop my car off, remember?”
You get the picture. You will be glad to know that the tests are corrected, graded and the grades are posted. The homework for the last unit has also been graded. I still have stuff left to go over, but nothing LATE anymore. I can’t help but feel a bit frustrated though. If I could START and work until I FINISHED I probably would still have the same amount of time to spend with everyone. I spend (waste) so much time trying to figure out where I left off. And, every time I go back I go through that same self dialogue: “Look at that! Yuck! I really don’t want to do it right now…maybe I could watch TV and write a post instead?”
Hope you all had a wonderful weekend! Spring has sprung. The rebirth has begun!